I've never had an account here so bear with me.
It must have been 2010 or 2011 when I first heard this song. How I got here the first time I don't know, but this song happened to me just before I needed it. I downloaded it onto my shitty little laptop and put it on my ipod. Practically all I listened to for a very important time of my life - I was about to meet my real father and sibling for the first time. I have a memory where my adopted parents are arguing or having a smoke or smoking to hide the arguing and I'm sitting in the back of the car, hugging my knees, just listening to this song. Over and over.
I kept coming back over the years. I would remember that my new phone didn't have it, or I would just look it up once I got internet access on my phone. And here I am in 2022, trying so hard to sum up how much it means to me. I'm here again. I'm still afraid of changing. I have gotten older, too.
There's three versions of me; one that is always longing for the past, one that is afraid of the future, and the one conveying these feelings right now. This cover speaks to every level, every emotion, and does its damned best to soothe.
I dunno what you've been up to for the last decade, Cayler, but please know that this is forever my favorite piece of music. Thanks for that.