Ennui (2023/4/12)

There isn't much to say about this one except hey I can do a bit of perspective with a ruler I guess!

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Original caption on Instagram:

Everyday I've been waking up on the same bed, hugging my one and only Blåhaj I just bought the other week. Unlike other bolsters, it seems that I couldn't get my hands off of it, even when waking up. I just couldn't seem to get it off of my hands. "That's weird, maybe this shark's for me.", I told myself.

I woke up, as per the picture. I didn't make any reference or anything. That was how I genuinely felt that day. I went to look on my news and do the normal deed as per usual. Looked up on my found and found the news that mental health is on a big decline, along with sales of houses rising, people can't keep up with the cost of living, economic inflation. People can't keep up.

Then it was at this point I had to be a Computer Science Major; I can't work anything creative or else my wages will suffer, I thought to myself. But then if I did Computer Science I would probably hate my life. Big tech is scary, bro. Good money, but scary shit they do though behind the scenes. Not something I would stand up to.

It was fasting season, and probably my brain chemicals are lacking certain molecules that would make me happy. I don't know. Whatever it was it's definitely a different Ramadan time than the other 15 others that I've experienced.

"Maybe this wouldn't happen if I got that special someone.", I repeated the motif that I was missing someone that would've made me happy. Maybe it was my mum, who scuttled away from the country. Maybe it's someone whom I never met just yet.

Whatever it was that made my ennui, I don't know. I'm just not in a mentally good place right now.

I don't know what is happening

I don't know

知らない

我不知道... 不知也

Entahlah.

Be safe dudes <3

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Hoozah this was less than 3000 characters