Painted this back in 2009 and this is my verbiage from that date.
some insight into this painting:
recently my husband and i have been trying to have a baby. in fact, we have been trying for the last year and a half. i have some medical issues (polycystic ovarian syndrome) that have thus far prohibited us from conceiving a child. these medical issues are in the process of being taken care of, however, it still does not change the mental and emotional hardships that i have been going thru. it seems like every time i turn around life throws someone elses fertility in my face. it seems as though everyone but me can get pregnant. i am struggling to keep positive but some days it turns me into someone that i don't want to be.
i decided to paint this becuase when i paint i get my emotions and frustrations out. this painting is my catharsis of emotion.
i choose the colors yellow and orange because most of us associate these colors with warm and happy feelings. the background and her eyes are blue because blue is associated with being sad and the eyes can portray so much emotion, emotion that on the surface is not normally visible. i liked the pose of the reference because it seemed so vulnerable and with drawn. the background is a pattern of a blooming heart around a stork. for me this references the ability to create a child.

sorry if this seems a little scatterbrained. i'm having a hard time putting into words all of the meaning of this piece.

***since this piece was painted my husband and i were able to conceive a child of our own. i like to think that i had to get all of my negative energy and thoughts out and into this piece before i was able to conceive our beautiful son. if you do not agree with this painting, please keep it to yourself.****