I just drew something that looks like avacado, or no... Anyways it's turned from avacado to this. Don't even ask why I wanted to drewa avacado.

Also I was drawing it in time when my mom scream at me and mainly inbetween time. It's really bad. I really scared for my future.. I'm scared so much I'm scared. My mom want to steal my laptop and break it, she want to steal other stuff but just hide them... Like it's actually makes sense why I wrote to police and child services or whatever they called. Like... uhh.... I'm really dying... I don't really want to do this... she don't even deserve this (even thought there was a time when she beat me... just two months ago)

there is too much to write here. Also everyone think I have autism... but I'm not... I'm sick and tired

Also I really tired....

My mom doesn't want to take any kind of responsibility for me. She want to get rid of me once I turn 18. She want me kick out of home on street, without any kind of support and money... just cruely kick out....

Like it's not even all problem.. Not just parents, but whole Russia. I'm stuck here! I need to get out! Army will kill me!

I can't live here for so many reasons. I know that people from other country know almost nothing about Russia. But it's really shitty place where you can easily get to jail or just die. I'm transgeder and it's really hard to me to live in Russia. I'm dying from dyshporia since I can't even get HRT. The goverment is really bad. There is really small amount of freedom. Yeah there is freedom, but it's really scary. Goverment make money from us. It's just... ah... Goverment doing nothing. They throw our money on nothing, they STEAL a lot of money from taxes, and they give money to other goverments, why it's bad, because often we live even worse than these countrys! AND it's truth. There is a lot of things to say... but I can't....

People seems to ignore me. Well they not but, I have no one to talk with, even thought I have friends... I didn't talk with them for a weeks... Maybe it's my problem,... maybe it is... anyways I'm dying everyday. The bad people from my past ried to ruin my life, they came from nowhere... They tried to stop collecting of money. Also recently it's hard to contact with organizator with is super sad... Since I really have bad time, and they don't know that I doing these things. I have no one to talk with about that thing. I really scared.... I really dead... School is also make a lot of pressure on me... it's just insane

You may donate me but tbh, it's better to know more about my situation, maybe you have something more important.... maybe you know someone important.... maybe you can find people to help me idk.... I really want you to visit discord server do this pls.

You may check my reddit post that I made from messages that I wrote to someone so it maybe slightly bad.

https://www.reddit.com/r/MtF/comments/i4ptx2/hello_i_think_i_need_your_help_or_my_end_will/

And GoFundMe Page, well for donation better to contact, I know you won't so join chat at least

GoFundMe Page

Here is a link to DISCORD, use it.

https://discord.gg/h7xEwr4v

I don't have any other places for people that want to know my situation or help me or ??? but... huh I guess you can contact with me somehow else....

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You may thought I were going to win

Yes, but I just stuck at begin!